Have you ever thought that people do not like you? But it could be worse when you couldn't love your self. What people said really meant a lot to me. Indeed, it was so important to that, i often ignore my own feelings,

My feeling was such a monster to me. Anxiety and fear haunted me and upset me. I felt that i could never did somthing right - somthing that would make other like me. yea , that silly idea! I was lost in my guilty feeling. I felt so useless!

Sometimes, I could feel something mad inside me. It was screaming and strugling to get free from the tigh and dark spirit's prison. Deep down my in heart... And it became harder and harder everyday. im trapped in very difficult time! I asked my self why but could not find the answer?! I wish invisible....

Sudenly... i found something! a real islam... It did not cross my mind to find the solution of my problem in islam. Muslim is the best mankind. We have a great pride in the God's side. As a muslims, we should not be weak. we should be proud, strong and tought.

It was like waking up from a nightmare. I feel better after knowing that. I know... it took time and needed a proccess before I finally walked as far as this.

Maybe im not pretty, sexy, rich, or popular ... But i have so many thing that they probably doesn't have. and yea, only a jerk would judge someone based on someone's physical appearance!

from now, I will learn how to love my self just the way I am. I know it's not going to be easy because i dont really like myself. Then how come others could like me while  i couldn't?

I think im not supposed to worry anymore, I have to be my own self without feeling guilty... I can feel free, peaceful, and happy... Because im good and God blessed me the day I was born by giving me my Muslim identity. My biggest mistake was letting other control how i felt and tought. I forgot that im the greatest gift of God. I should thanks Allah by accepting and loving His gift what ever it is. Because Allah gives us a life without cursing, then why can't we accepting it without complaining ?

well, u know how i felt! it was like falling in a deep and dark hole. It putted me in the midlle of nowhere. Thanks Allah im free now..... LOVE me... just the way I am...